Mist
You claim you have been to therapy, did your shrink explain to what re-victimization is? i.e. people who have been abused seek out people and scenarios that will create more abuse. you obviously fall in that category because everyone who has a conversation with you about your life ends up wanting to slap the shit out of you.
Not once do you take to heart anything anyone says to talk sense to you, you never say "shit your right, i need to get a handle on this." instead you argue, complain and make excuses. you want people to tell you to fuck off, tell you your a dumb cunt, treat you like shit. you are instigating those reactions because a fucked up part of you wants that so you can keep playing pity party.
time to break the cycle, or don't I could give a fuck.