Communicating an ungodly amount on social and dating platforms to attempt to get laid (even to the most abhorrent creatures imaginable) - only to realize it would be virtually impossible for the amount of people I contacted to genuinely not be interested. Different platforms, different messages, different conversation lengths, different openers. Matrix/Truman Show level what is happening where the fuck am I, something is blocking me from getting laid type shit. Do I have free will in this jacked up instance? No sirs, no I do not.
I genuinely am starting to believe whatever is going on is doing so to either A) make it so the only thing I can do on earth is learn to code and become a master at coding B) the powers that be are trying to get me to knife myself.