It is convenient indeed. Does this convenience trouble you though?
"It just happened" Well no, it didn't "just happen"; there was a grand design and plan to it Jasker. Your schizophrenia (Look dude, I'm just going out on a limb and assuming this is your diagnosis... don't get angry at me kthx) is skewing your view of reality enough to make it cray cray, but you're intelligent, perceptive, pure and honest enough to look at this and see that the miracle of life, existence, and reality didn't just happen by chance, nothingness, and random mutation either.
You realize that this world and reality is too damn amazing and special to not have a design to it, yes?
Who, then, is the designer?
Ask yourself that... and then ask yourself... if YOU were designed and created Jasker, would the Creator leave It's creation(s) alone, scared, and questioning reality with NO answer to your/their questions? Perhaps. That would sound like a pretty cold and uncaring entity indeed!
But perhaps if YOU were designed and created and the Creator actually loved and cared for you, wouldn't that Creator want YOU to know what IT is?
So my BIG QUESTION to you Jasker is: do you think your Creator has already reached out to you or not Jasker?
I concur with you here my friend... you're living a lie. Your search for the truth is the search all of us go on. Most people never find the truth. I hope you do