By now most people know that a while ago I made a sex tape that recently surfaced, and I feel it's necessary to clear a few things up.
- Making a sex tape doesn't make me a whore. I spent months unsuccessfully seeking employment with no success, so when someone offered me thousands of dollars and said that no one would ever find out about it, I naively assumedyy it would be safe. I'm 20 years old, financially independent, and I had bills to pay. They promised it would never be posted on the Internet, but a few months later it was leaked and it's been hell ever since. My motive for doing it was money and nothing other than that. I was desperate and made a foolish mistake. Unfortunately this is something that has happened not only to me, but many other young girls in similar situations and I need to make it clear how wrongful it is to judge us. Chances are, you've made you're mistakes as well, just in a different way.
- The interview wasn't real. For those of you saying "I was happy and excited to do it", that is false. I was told what to say. Any "happy demeanor" I may have had was for show.
- Do not bring my family or friends into this. It is not a reflection of them, or their values. No one knew except for me, and this has been more of a shock to them than anyone else. People have been attacking my family, and those people are sick, twisted, and pathetic if they feel the need to take time out of their daily lives to spread hate to people they don't even know. They are the kindest, most supportive people in existence, and if anyone has anything negative to say, you can say it to me. Gossiping is cowardly. If you have a problem, you can say it to me because I can handle it. They have no part in this.
- My life is not over. For those saying that I have no future now, just know that you're completely and entirely wrong. I'm still a student, I'm still getting my degree in business. I still have a job, an apartment, a life that I love, and a strong network of people that love and care for me. In a way I'm grateful that I've been given an opportunity to see who my real friends are, and it's made my relationships that much stronger.
So, bottom line: you can judge me, you can hate me, you can talk all you want. It's not going to change me or what I stand for, and it's certainly not going to hurt me. Although this has affected the people I love most as well, they also are handling things graciously and they will continue to until this blows over. My one request is that you place the judgement on me and not them, this is not a consequence of how I was raised nor is it a reflection on them in any way, shape, or form.