this is really depressing. ive been reading this forum since the beginning, and noows when it was still around, just to check out loot and mmo discussion but after i quit mmos for the most part i came here just to read and talk and make stupid posts and occasionally get some much needed advice
this forum provided me a catharsis i desperately needed at times, and whenever i was depressed and most down and at a loss for what to do and had no one to turn to, or didnt trust RL people to reveal my problems and stupidity and vanity i came here.
i dont know why but after those stupid posts id make that were at times a cry for help or at least a way for me to get the screams i couldnt let out any other place or way, i could always come here and most of the time it made me feel better or at least gave me an outlet
it helped me and now thats gone, if foh truly dies ive lost something i cant ever replace and as depressed as i am and as shit as my life has become constantly ive lost the one place i always felt like i had to turn to and i knew someone would listen
even if they ridiculed me for what i said i just knew someone was listening and i could say here what i couldnt bring myself to say in the flesh
now as it was its gone and tyen i hope you understand what ive lost, what you helped to destroy in my life. ive lost something i cant replace, not really, not truly it will never be the same and i wont have this outlet and the audience to listen when i need someone to hear
i hate you for that but now i mostly just hate myself knowing how pathetic it was that a gaming forum was where id go for help and expunge the horrible things i was feeling
now that its gone i know how truly lost i am, how sad it all is
bye guys thanks for listening when i needed an ear