Six days in, this medication put me in a manic phase within 24 hours of the first dose.
Zoloft (for me at least) will work and make you not sad. For me it just made everything just there though.Started taking Zoloft.
Not sure how I feel about it. It hasn't kicked in yet. Only been three days.
My best friend keeps overdosing. I think this is the third time. First go at it he should have been dead. He survived but made all his physical problems worse. Most recent was last night. He texted me and another friend of ours around midnight. Just saying he loved us and we are the best. So I was concerned from that. Sure enough his wife texts later that he's OD and in the hospital. Stable but out.
I keep making it about myself... am I a shitty friend for not helping more, what should I be doing, all of that. It just sucks.
Yeah, only conscientious people get that sort of depression. Assholes don't give things a second thought.I don't know. I could keep going on and on about my story. Some people in my life that I really respect say I'm too hard on myself.
Yeah look at it as taking a short-medium term hit to your finances to make yourself feel better, that'll increase your productivity/happiness and therefore your earning potential long term.I have the money, but fuck I hate spending it when I don't have income (other than investment). As they say, you don't keep money by spending it.... Starting to think the money thing is moot when weighing it against my mental health though.
Thanks for the insight Chris. Yeah I think your right, short term investment for the long term.Yeah look at it as taking a short-medium term hit to your finances to make yourself feel better, that'll increase your productivity/happiness and therefore your earning potential long term.
I did two moves to deal with my depression.
The first was to the other side of the country to train as a teacher, the actual course and the friends I made there was great and helped a lot. I then got a job in that city and was isolated as the new friends moved away to their own jobs and my family/old friends were miles away. So it failed but I learned employable skills.
The second was to the nearest city to my hometown, I didn't really make many new friends that time but I had my old friends and family close by so I had more support. I also met my wife through online dating, which was the thing that got rid of 95% of my depression.
I've just moved to another city with my wife, I work from home now and the lack of routine and relatively low pay is starting to get to me and the rumination is coming back.
With rumination you gotta dig deep and find the root cause of it, then it'll go away. For me it was being an incel, getting into a relationship fixed it. Now it's health and money worries but it's nowere near as bad as it was.