Rhanyn
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I"ll give the meditation a shot, because being completely exhauted only net"d me 4 hours. I feel like shit and it"s going to be a long day. It sucks, but I know I"m not completely over her. I don"t think I will be until she gets back state side in 5 or so months and I can give her her stuff etc. I have had a 5 year thing with this chick, she isn"t going to pop out of my head in less than a standard work week. I do feel better about everything though, more so that I have been in awhile. I have a hook up lined up, I just have to wait for the girl to come back to Missouri again. She"s a girl I went to HS with who use to have me friend zoned/on the hook pretty hard. She ran off and married her older military bf who was never around back then and is divorcing him now. She is damn hot and unfortunately I"ve turned her down twice now because I have had this relationship going on. She is due back in town sometime in April or so, should give me enough time to clear my head and be into it.
And I definitely have lost my appetite. I literally just ate half of one pop tart and I"m done. It may be for the best, I do need to lose some weight, especially if I"m going to be tail hunting again. My lowest weight was 240 after I hit almost 400 when I dropped out of college. Went through a 9 month long depression where I didn"t work, didn"t do anything, but play EQ2 and feel sad for myself. It was reading the exercise thread on this forum that kind of got me inspired. Got a puts job stocking groceries not far from my house and less than a year later I had lost 140lbs. I have some lulz pics I took for my guild when I was still fat I should post before and after pics. And whats up with the gall bladder thing, I"ve never heard of that, will have to look it up. I"ve dropped 10lbs and am sitting at 255 this morning pre shit, so I know I"m losing weight, I usually only fluctuate a few pounds most days.
And I definitely have lost my appetite. I literally just ate half of one pop tart and I"m done. It may be for the best, I do need to lose some weight, especially if I"m going to be tail hunting again. My lowest weight was 240 after I hit almost 400 when I dropped out of college. Went through a 9 month long depression where I didn"t work, didn"t do anything, but play EQ2 and feel sad for myself. It was reading the exercise thread on this forum that kind of got me inspired. Got a puts job stocking groceries not far from my house and less than a year later I had lost 140lbs. I have some lulz pics I took for my guild when I was still fat I should post before and after pics. And whats up with the gall bladder thing, I"ve never heard of that, will have to look it up. I"ve dropped 10lbs and am sitting at 255 this morning pre shit, so I know I"m losing weight, I usually only fluctuate a few pounds most days.