The Paranormal, UFO's, and Mysteries of the Unknown

Rajaah said:

Not sure I believe anything that random guy is saying about being experimented on, but if grey aliens are real, it wouldn't surprise me at all if they could cross-breed with humans. Have always gotten the vibe that they either made us, or ARE us from further up the evolutionary ladder (i.e. later in time).

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Rajaah said:

I haven't been outright rejected in years,

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Rajaah said:

you bestiality-committing autistic beanbag.

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Rajaah said:

@Chukzombi My God, you were right, a thread dedicated to me probably is going to be a thing. This guy has detailed files, like the Terminator.

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Rajaah said:

Couple days later she was like "look I'm really busy now sry" and broke it off.

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Rajaah said:

Don't listen to me though, I stopped doing all this shit like 3 years ago because I got too damn busy to go on first dates with all these women who invariably looked 5 years older than their pictures.

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Rajaah said:

dating app matches, friends of friends, random women I met in a store, etc, and hardly any of them ever went beyond the first date.

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Rajaah said:

I sat next to an incredibly gorgeous woman on a flight to Charlotte NC a couple years ago. For like 3 hours neither of us said anything,

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Rajaah said:

8x in a row happened when I was like 17, Madchen Amick wasn't a porn star, and hell if I could get anywhere near that now as an old-ass man.

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Rajaah said:

It's like when a girl is desperate to be around you and you get kind of weirded out.

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Rajaah said:

Where's the conundrum, you ask? The conundrum is that I suck right now. I'm not in shape (after being in very good shape for like two decades, I've slid a lot in 2023 from overall depression). I still look good, but I'm not healthy, I'm low energy, I'm injury prone, I'm not someone I'd want to be with and I don't want to waste anybody's time. So my confidence level sucks now and certainly isn't at the level it needs to be to confidently address someone this gorgeous.

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Rajaah said:

Haven't had a GF in a couple years, but I've tried to get every GF I've ever had interested in games

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Rajaah said:

A) Wrong, during those rare occasions the chix had fun. Esp if it was Pokemon or some shit. They got bored and broke up with me because I couldn't commit and didn't want to have kids.

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Rajaah said:

It's more that I've made no effort whatsoever to find a GF in the past couple of years, and don't get out much which prevents meeting one by accident.

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Rajaah said:

I feel like 39 is an awkward age for me. I'm too young to be someone's "daddy" and I'm too old to be like a boyfriend to the late 20's crowd (my preferred age for women).

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Rajaah said:

Then after like a half hour of just furious making out, we went back to chatting and both had to be up early the next day so I said let's call it here and pick up where we left off next time. She said she'd like that. Next day I messaged her on the app and told her I was having a get-together with some friends the day after that and asked if she'd like for me to bring her along as my date. No response, kinda weird. A few hours went by and I checked again and we were un-matched. Uhhhhh.

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Rajaah said:

When I do try, I generally find one. After having a streak of one after another from 2009 through 2018 I needed a fairly substantial break.

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Rajaah said:

I think "Keep going down, stupid" is what my first girlfriend used to tell me when she was teaching me how to sex . Got lost a couple times in terms of hitting a dead end and having to look around for another route, but it's basically just "head downward" for the whole thing.

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Rajaah said:

I haven't had a GF in a couple years, otherwise I'd be totally neutered on these backlog challenges. I don't think I've ever had a GF who actually knew how to let me have personal space for an entire 24 hour span without freaking out and wanting to come over. Which is how I built up this huge backlog in the first place!

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Rajaah said:

Haven't had a girlfriend since 2018 which is by a lot the longest I've gone without one since I started having them. Spent 2019 traveling and didn't want a girlfriend, then dating became not a thing, now I don't remember how to get one and I'm not sure if I'm compatible with modern people anymore.

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Rajaah said:

Go balls to the wall with this new EQ project of doing an RTS box crew FF12-style, or go balls to the wall with the CRPG crusade I've been talking about in the Baldur's Gate 3 thread. Both of those would be massive timesinks that'd take the better part of the whole four months probably. Don't think I can do both. Or I could spend the summer running around looking for a new girlfriend.

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Rajaah said:

it was a lot of fun, but eventually it petered out again. Basically been a-sexual since 2020 started, mopey about the good old days and sometimes morose as fuck.

Feels like it's dumb to be this way and I should be getting out and finding a new person. Who knows, it might be another unicorn. I've got zero drive though. Just zilch. It's easier to pine over what was than it is to face the challenge of "what could be". The least people can do is not push me about it, already feel bad enough that my mom doesn't have grandkids and I'm in my late 30's. Also feel bad that I feel bad. It's a merry go round of negativity.

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Rajaah said:

Yeah, I've tried at some point to see if every GF I've had was interested in games

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Rajaah said:

True that. I've had girlfriends that I thought were gonna go the distance until I took some sort of road trip with them and they made me miserable,

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Rajaah said:

I couldn't care less about being single the past couple years. Contrary to what Ossoi thinks, I'm a vol-cel. Got other shit to do.

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Void said:

EDIT: Jesus Christ Ossoi is an autistic faggot.

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