Well after YEARS (and I mean 15~) of depression, I am finally feeling healthy. A couple months ago I had my last session with my therapist. We both decided I didn't need regular therapy sessions any more and I could just call her if I needed to see her. Haven't needed to though so that is awesome.
Since then, I've been doing great. I spend 3-4 days a week at a dog obedience school either working my dog or assisting my trainer. I've have become a lot closer with her - she's definitely become my mentor - and we've been researching breeders for my next dog together.
I no longer am battling constant negative thinking. In honestly can't remember the last time I found myself thinking like that. It is truly amazing because prior to this, I thought EVERYONE had that negative voice in their head and really didn't believe when my husband and therapist told me that wasn't true. I get it now though.
The biggest and most exciting news though was that I got an internship with a literary agent. I have been struggling with career stuff pretty much my entire adult life, majorly regretting that I didn't finish college etc. I have beaten myself up constantly about not knowing what I wanted to do. So I sat down about a month ago and wrote a couple letters to some literary agents just asking for advice: what would be the best way to work towards becoming an agent given my lack of college and resume (stay at home mom for 8 years crap). One wrote back! And not only did she write back, but she offered me an internship. I guess that she was much more interested in someone that really WANTED to take the steps towards making it a career rather than some college kid that thought it would be kinda cool to read the slush pile. So I've been reading manuscripts for her for 3 weeks now and she has given me really positive feedback.
So life is good and for the first time in a very long time I am happy.