Depression

Dr.Retarded said:

Had to go to a funeral a few weeks ago for a close friend of mine's wife. She committed suicide. She got laid off. He's not doing any better, especially after getting laid off, too. Our network of friends has tried to do their best to support him and his family by trying to stay in touch on the day-to-day basis and what have you. There's not a whole hell of a lot you can do for somebody in that type of circumstance other than be present, and listen.

The lockdown bullshit may not be the direct cause of his families horrendous situation, but it sure is fuck didn't help.

BoozeCube you are 100% correct on the danger and disparity between deaths that have nothing to do with the China virus.

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Tide27 said:

I very rarely post anything about my RL situation, and probably still shouldnt, no matter how embarrassing my life turned out to be.

Having said that, I am in the same situation as this person. I left the Army back in 2004 after back to back deployments to Korea and Iraq and thought Id get a nice job having all that experience when I came home. What I was met with was rejection after rejection of any job offers that was not fast food. I even got turned down as just a general stocker at Best Buy ( applied because of the 5%+ wholesale discount and had a ton of cash saved from the deployments ) . I left the military as an E-5 and my first job was flipping bugers at Krystal for $5.25 an hour. Went from working on $8m+ dollar helicopters, to a flatop making 49 cent cheeseburgers. Every time I applied for anything at all that wasnt entry level, it was "you need a degree...what is your degree..you have no degree? " So I got my business mngt degree while waiting tables through college.

Exit college with 6 years military ( infantry and aviation ), 4 year degree in Business Mngt and hit the job market. Now Im told I need " experience " in whatever respective field Im applying for. Went to a papermill for an admin role, but they wanted 10+ year paper mill experience for 30k a year?? No matter where I searched, I needed to have an assload of experience to get any job that paid over $6 dollars an hour, but I couldnt afford to work for $6 an hour.

Fast forward some years and I had no choice but to wait tables since it paid decent while looking for other jobs ( majority of all other wait staff all had college degrees as well ) So I end up working my way up through the waiter / bar / supervisor / manager / area manager / agm / gm / multi-unit manager / director positions.

While I know $75k is nothing to many of yall, I worked very hard to continue to elevate myself to where I could take care of my family. Fast forward to today, and Covid has wiped out my career full stop. Went from $75k + bonus with a brand new newborn child ( best daughter a daddy could ever want ) to $350 a week. Have spent hours daily on indeed looking for anything. Over 120+ applications submitted, got 2 calls for jobs that were a total of 2 1/2 hr communte with 12-14 hour shifts. Anything in my salary range wants a Masters with 10+ years experience in whatever field I apply for. So here I am, literally 2-3 months away from losing both of our cars, our house ( we rent ) , getting locked up for failure to pay child support, and a marriage that has disintegrated because we have lost fucking everything over this god damn fake flu.

I have a loaded rifle and look at it every day. This shit has cost me everything I have ever worked hard for in life. Just yesterday I got contacted about another food service job ( wish to hell someone would call me about a diff job ), only for them to call me back and say because the state increased the Covid phase level again and they anticipate another round of a mass reduction of revenue, well...there is no spot for me to go.

I sit here with a pit in my stomach everyday and pray there is a light at the end of the tunnel, while I watch my neighbors that fortunately have jobs where they arent reliant on a mass amount of people for revenue sit back and collect paychecks while sitting at home with their families.

This bullshit has been a blessing for some people, some people it hasnt effected, and for some people....it has completely destroyed our lives and the only light at the end of the tunnel thats visible is a gunshot to the head. I love my daughter so much and she doesnt deserve to have a daddy that cant provide for her. If I cant, I have a pretty wife...maybe she find someone that will love my daughter as much as I do.

Literally at the complete end of my rope. I am one of those people you may see on the news someday because he finally snapped and took out multiple people on his way out.

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Tide27 said:

I very rarely post anything about my RL situation, and probably still shouldnt, no matter how embarrassing my life turned out to be.

Having said that, I am in the same situation as this person. I left the Army back in 2004 after back to back deployments to Korea and Iraq and thought Id get a nice job having all that experience when I came home. What I was met with was rejection after rejection of any job offers that was not fast food. I even got turned down as just a general stocker at Best Buy ( applied because of the 5%+ wholesale discount and had a ton of cash saved from the deployments ) . I left the military as an E-5 and my first job was flipping bugers at Krystal for $5.25 an hour. Went from working on $8m+ dollar helicopters, to a flatop making 49 cent cheeseburgers. Every time I applied for anything at all that wasnt entry level, it was "you need a degree...what is your degree..you have no degree? " So I got my business mngt degree while waiting tables through college.

Exit college with 6 years military ( infantry and aviation ), 4 year degree in Business Mngt and hit the job market. Now Im told I need " experience " in whatever respective field Im applying for. Went to a papermill for an admin role, but they wanted 10+ year paper mill experience for 30k a year?? No matter where I searched, I needed to have an assload of experience to get any job that paid over $6 dollars an hour, but I couldnt afford to work for $6 an hour.

Fast forward some years and I had no choice but to wait tables since it paid decent while looking for other jobs ( majority of all other wait staff all had college degrees as well ) So I end up working my way up through the waiter / bar / supervisor / manager / area manager / agm / gm / multi-unit manager / director positions.

While I know $75k is nothing to many of yall, I worked very hard to continue to elevate myself to where I could take care of my family. Fast forward to today, and Covid has wiped out my career full stop. Went from $75k + bonus with a brand new newborn child ( best daughter a daddy could ever want ) to $350 a week. Have spent hours daily on indeed looking for anything. Over 120+ applications submitted, got 2 calls for jobs that were a total of 2 1/2 hr communte with 12-14 hour shifts. Anything in my salary range wants a Masters with 10+ years experience in whatever field I apply for. So here I am, literally 2-3 months away from losing both of our cars, our house ( we rent ) , getting locked up for failure to pay child support, and a marriage that has disintegrated because we have lost fucking everything over this god damn fake flu.

I have a loaded rifle and look at it every day. This shit has cost me everything I have ever worked hard for in life. Just yesterday I got contacted about another food service job ( wish to hell someone would call me about a diff job ), only for them to call me back and say because the state increased the Covid phase level again and they anticipate another round of a mass reduction of revenue, well...there is no spot for me to go.

I sit here with a pit in my stomach everyday and pray there is a light at the end of the tunnel, while I watch my neighbors that fortunately have jobs where they arent reliant on a mass amount of people for revenue sit back and collect paychecks while sitting at home with their families.

This bullshit has been a blessing for some people, some people it hasnt effected, and for some people....it has completely destroyed our lives and the only light at the end of the tunnel thats visible is a gunshot to the head. I love my daughter so much and she doesnt deserve to have a daddy that cant provide for her. If I cant, I have a pretty wife...maybe she find someone that will love my daughter as much as I do.

Literally at the complete end of my rope. I am one of those people you may see on the news someday because he finally snapped and took out multiple people on his way out.

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Foler said:

Uhh ya, you copping out on your daughter like that will fuck her in the head forever. No sugarcoating that. She'll always wonder why daddy didn't love her enough to stick around and she got stuck with stepdad. I empathize with your situation but don't do that shit.

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Tide27 said:

I very rarely post anything about my RL situation, and probably still shouldnt, no matter how embarrassing my life turned out to be.

Having said that, I am in the same situation as this person. I left the Army back in 2004 after back to back deployments to Korea and Iraq and thought Id get a nice job having all that experience when I came home. What I was met with was rejection after rejection of any job offers that was not fast food. I even got turned down as just a general stocker at Best Buy ( applied because of the 5%+ wholesale discount and had a ton of cash saved from the deployments ) . I left the military as an E-5 and my first job was flipping bugers at Krystal for $5.25 an hour. Went from working on $8m+ dollar helicopters, to a flatop making 49 cent cheeseburgers. Every time I applied for anything at all that wasnt entry level, it was "you need a degree...what is your degree..you have no degree? " So I got my business mngt degree while waiting tables through college.

Exit college with 6 years military ( infantry and aviation ), 4 year degree in Business Mngt and hit the job market. Now Im told I need " experience " in whatever respective field Im applying for. Went to a papermill for an admin role, but they wanted 10+ year paper mill experience for 30k a year?? No matter where I searched, I needed to have an assload of experience to get any job that paid over $6 dollars an hour, but I couldnt afford to work for $6 an hour.

Fast forward some years and I had no choice but to wait tables since it paid decent while looking for other jobs ( majority of all other wait staff all had college degrees as well ) So I end up working my way up through the waiter / bar / supervisor / manager / area manager / agm / gm / multi-unit manager / director positions.

While I know $75k is nothing to many of yall, I worked very hard to continue to elevate myself to where I could take care of my family. Fast forward to today, and Covid has wiped out my career full stop. Went from $75k + bonus with a brand new newborn child ( best daughter a daddy could ever want ) to $350 a week. Have spent hours daily on indeed looking for anything. Over 120+ applications submitted, got 2 calls for jobs that were a total of 2 1/2 hr communte with 12-14 hour shifts. Anything in my salary range wants a Masters with 10+ years experience in whatever field I apply for. So here I am, literally 2-3 months away from losing both of our cars, our house ( we rent ) , getting locked up for failure to pay child support, and a marriage that has disintegrated because we have lost fucking everything over this god damn fake flu.

I have a loaded rifle and look at it every day. This shit has cost me everything I have ever worked hard for in life. Just yesterday I got contacted about another food service job ( wish to hell someone would call me about a diff job ), only for them to call me back and say because the state increased the Covid phase level again and they anticipate another round of a mass reduction of revenue, well...there is no spot for me to go.

I sit here with a pit in my stomach everyday and pray there is a light at the end of the tunnel, while I watch my neighbors that fortunately have jobs where they arent reliant on a mass amount of people for revenue sit back and collect paychecks while sitting at home with their families.

This bullshit has been a blessing for some people, some people it hasnt effected, and for some people....it has completely destroyed our lives and the only light at the end of the tunnel thats visible is a gunshot to the head. I love my daughter so much and she doesnt deserve to have a daddy that cant provide for her. If I cant, I have a pretty wife...maybe she find someone that will love my daughter as much as I do.

Literally at the complete end of my rope. I am one of those people you may see on the news someday because he finally snapped and took out multiple people on his way out.

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Tide27 said:

I very rarely post anything about my RL situation, and probably still shouldnt, no matter how embarrassing my life turned out to be.

Having said that, I am in the same situation as this person. I left the Army back in 2004 after back to back deployments to Korea and Iraq and thought Id get a nice job having all that experience when I came home. What I was met with was rejection after rejection of any job offers that was not fast food. I even got turned down as just a general stocker at Best Buy ( applied because of the 5%+ wholesale discount and had a ton of cash saved from the deployments ) . I left the military as an E-5 and my first job was flipping bugers at Krystal for $5.25 an hour. Went from working on $8m+ dollar helicopters, to a flatop making 49 cent cheeseburgers. Every time I applied for anything at all that wasnt entry level, it was "you need a degree...what is your degree..you have no degree? " So I got my business mngt degree while waiting tables through college.

Exit college with 6 years military ( infantry and aviation ), 4 year degree in Business Mngt and hit the job market. Now Im told I need " experience " in whatever respective field Im applying for. Went to a papermill for an admin role, but they wanted 10+ year paper mill experience for 30k a year?? No matter where I searched, I needed to have an assload of experience to get any job that paid over $6 dollars an hour, but I couldnt afford to work for $6 an hour.

Fast forward some years and I had no choice but to wait tables since it paid decent while looking for other jobs ( majority of all other wait staff all had college degrees as well ) So I end up working my way up through the waiter / bar / supervisor / manager / area manager / agm / gm / multi-unit manager / director positions.

While I know $75k is nothing to many of yall, I worked very hard to continue to elevate myself to where I could take care of my family. Fast forward to today, and Covid has wiped out my career full stop. Went from $75k + bonus with a brand new newborn child ( best daughter a daddy could ever want ) to $350 a week. Have spent hours daily on indeed looking for anything. Over 120+ applications submitted, got 2 calls for jobs that were a total of 2 1/2 hr communte with 12-14 hour shifts. Anything in my salary range wants a Masters with 10+ years experience in whatever field I apply for. So here I am, literally 2-3 months away from losing both of our cars, our house ( we rent ) , getting locked up for failure to pay child support, and a marriage that has disintegrated because we have lost fucking everything over this god damn fake flu.

I have a loaded rifle and look at it every day. This shit has cost me everything I have ever worked hard for in life. Just yesterday I got contacted about another food service job ( wish to hell someone would call me about a diff job ), only for them to call me back and say because the state increased the Covid phase level again and they anticipate another round of a mass reduction of revenue, well...there is no spot for me to go.

I sit here with a pit in my stomach everyday and pray there is a light at the end of the tunnel, while I watch my neighbors that fortunately have jobs where they arent reliant on a mass amount of people for revenue sit back and collect paychecks while sitting at home with their families.

This bullshit has been a blessing for some people, some people it hasnt effected, and for some people....it has completely destroyed our lives and the only light at the end of the tunnel thats visible is a gunshot to the head. I love my daughter so much and she doesnt deserve to have a daddy that cant provide for her. If I cant, I have a pretty wife...maybe she find someone that will love my daughter as much as I do.

Literally at the complete end of my rope. I am one of those people you may see on the news someday because he finally snapped and took out multiple people on his way out.

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Tide27 said:

I very rarely post anything about my RL situation, and probably still shouldnt, no matter how embarrassing my life turned out to be.

Having said that, I am in the same situation as this person. I left the Army back in 2004 after back to back deployments to Korea and Iraq and thought Id get a nice job having all that experience when I came home. What I was met with was rejection after rejection of any job offers that was not fast food. I even got turned down as just a general stocker at Best Buy ( applied because of the 5%+ wholesale discount and had a ton of cash saved from the deployments ) . I left the military as an E-5 and my first job was flipping bugers at Krystal for $5.25 an hour. Went from working on $8m+ dollar helicopters, to a flatop making 49 cent cheeseburgers. Every time I applied for anything at all that wasnt entry level, it was "you need a degree...what is your degree..you have no degree? " So I got my business mngt degree while waiting tables through college.

Exit college with 6 years military ( infantry and aviation ), 4 year degree in Business Mngt and hit the job market. Now Im told I need " experience " in whatever respective field Im applying for. Went to a papermill for an admin role, but they wanted 10+ year paper mill experience for 30k a year?? No matter where I searched, I needed to have an assload of experience to get any job that paid over $6 dollars an hour, but I couldnt afford to work for $6 an hour.

Fast forward some years and I had no choice but to wait tables since it paid decent while looking for other jobs ( majority of all other wait staff all had college degrees as well ) So I end up working my way up through the waiter / bar / supervisor / manager / area manager / agm / gm / multi-unit manager / director positions.

While I know $75k is nothing to many of yall, I worked very hard to continue to elevate myself to where I could take care of my family. Fast forward to today, and Covid has wiped out my career full stop. Went from $75k + bonus with a brand new newborn child ( best daughter a daddy could ever want ) to $350 a week. Have spent hours daily on indeed looking for anything. Over 120+ applications submitted, got 2 calls for jobs that were a total of 2 1/2 hr communte with 12-14 hour shifts. Anything in my salary range wants a Masters with 10+ years experience in whatever field I apply for. So here I am, literally 2-3 months away from losing both of our cars, our house ( we rent ) , getting locked up for failure to pay child support, and a marriage that has disintegrated because we have lost fucking everything over this god damn fake flu.

I have a loaded rifle and look at it every day. This shit has cost me everything I have ever worked hard for in life. Just yesterday I got contacted about another food service job ( wish to hell someone would call me about a diff job ), only for them to call me back and say because the state increased the Covid phase level again and they anticipate another round of a mass reduction of revenue, well...there is no spot for me to go.

I sit here with a pit in my stomach everyday and pray there is a light at the end of the tunnel, while I watch my neighbors that fortunately have jobs where they arent reliant on a mass amount of people for revenue sit back and collect paychecks while sitting at home with their families.

This bullshit has been a blessing for some people, some people it hasnt effected, and for some people....it has completely destroyed our lives and the only light at the end of the tunnel thats visible is a gunshot to the head. I love my daughter so much and she doesnt deserve to have a daddy that cant provide for her. If I cant, I have a pretty wife...maybe she find someone that will love my daughter as much as I do.

Literally at the complete end of my rope. I am one of those people you may see on the news someday because he finally snapped and took out multiple people on his way out.

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Tide27 said:

I very rarely post anything about my RL situation, and probably still shouldnt, no matter how embarrassing my life turned out to be.

Having said that, I am in the same situation as this person. I left the Army back in 2004 after back to back deployments to Korea and Iraq and thought Id get a nice job having all that experience when I came home. What I was met with was rejection after rejection of any job offers that was not fast food. I even got turned down as just a general stocker at Best Buy ( applied because of the 5%+ wholesale discount and had a ton of cash saved from the deployments ) . I left the military as an E-5 and my first job was flipping bugers at Krystal for $5.25 an hour. Went from working on $8m+ dollar helicopters, to a flatop making 49 cent cheeseburgers. Every time I applied for anything at all that wasnt entry level, it was "you need a degree...what is your degree..you have no degree? " So I got my business mngt degree while waiting tables through college.

Exit college with 6 years military ( infantry and aviation ), 4 year degree in Business Mngt and hit the job market. Now Im told I need " experience " in whatever respective field Im applying for. Went to a papermill for an admin role, but they wanted 10+ year paper mill experience for 30k a year?? No matter where I searched, I needed to have an assload of experience to get any job that paid over $6 dollars an hour, but I couldnt afford to work for $6 an hour.

Fast forward some years and I had no choice but to wait tables since it paid decent while looking for other jobs ( majority of all other wait staff all had college degrees as well ) So I end up working my way up through the waiter / bar / supervisor / manager / area manager / agm / gm / multi-unit manager / director positions.

While I know $75k is nothing to many of yall, I worked very hard to continue to elevate myself to where I could take care of my family. Fast forward to today, and Covid has wiped out my career full stop. Went from $75k + bonus with a brand new newborn child ( best daughter a daddy could ever want ) to $350 a week. Have spent hours daily on indeed looking for anything. Over 120+ applications submitted, got 2 calls for jobs that were a total of 2 1/2 hr communte with 12-14 hour shifts. Anything in my salary range wants a Masters with 10+ years experience in whatever field I apply for. So here I am, literally 2-3 months away from losing both of our cars, our house ( we rent ) , getting locked up for failure to pay child support, and a marriage that has disintegrated because we have lost fucking everything over this god damn fake flu.

I have a loaded rifle and look at it every day. This shit has cost me everything I have ever worked hard for in life. Just yesterday I got contacted about another food service job ( wish to hell someone would call me about a diff job ), only for them to call me back and say because the state increased the Covid phase level again and they anticipate another round of a mass reduction of revenue, well...there is no spot for me to go.

I sit here with a pit in my stomach everyday and pray there is a light at the end of the tunnel, while I watch my neighbors that fortunately have jobs where they arent reliant on a mass amount of people for revenue sit back and collect paychecks while sitting at home with their families.

This bullshit has been a blessing for some people, some people it hasnt effected, and for some people....it has completely destroyed our lives and the only light at the end of the tunnel thats visible is a gunshot to the head. I love my daughter so much and she doesnt deserve to have a daddy that cant provide for her. If I cant, I have a pretty wife...maybe she find someone that will love my daughter as much as I do.

Literally at the complete end of my rope. I am one of those people you may see on the news someday because he finally snapped and took out multiple people on his way out.

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Tide27 said:

I very rarely post anything about my RL situation, and probably still shouldnt, no matter how embarrassing my life turned out to be.

Having said that, I am in the same situation as this person. I left the Army back in 2004 after back to back deployments to Korea and Iraq and thought Id get a nice job having all that experience when I came home. What I was met with was rejection after rejection of any job offers that was not fast food. I even got turned down as just a general stocker at Best Buy ( applied because of the 5%+ wholesale discount and had a ton of cash saved from the deployments ) . I left the military as an E-5 and my first job was flipping bugers at Krystal for $5.25 an hour. Went from working on $8m+ dollar helicopters, to a flatop making 49 cent cheeseburgers. Every time I applied for anything at all that wasnt entry level, it was "you need a degree...what is your degree..you have no degree? " So I got my business mngt degree while waiting tables through college.

Exit college with 6 years military ( infantry and aviation ), 4 year degree in Business Mngt and hit the job market. Now Im told I need " experience " in whatever respective field Im applying for. Went to a papermill for an admin role, but they wanted 10+ year paper mill experience for 30k a year?? No matter where I searched, I needed to have an assload of experience to get any job that paid over $6 dollars an hour, but I couldnt afford to work for $6 an hour.

Fast forward some years and I had no choice but to wait tables since it paid decent while looking for other jobs ( majority of all other wait staff all had college degrees as well ) So I end up working my way up through the waiter / bar / supervisor / manager / area manager / agm / gm / multi-unit manager / director positions.

While I know $75k is nothing to many of yall, I worked very hard to continue to elevate myself to where I could take care of my family. Fast forward to today, and Covid has wiped out my career full stop. Went from $75k + bonus with a brand new newborn child ( best daughter a daddy could ever want ) to $350 a week. Have spent hours daily on indeed looking for anything. Over 120+ applications submitted, got 2 calls for jobs that were a total of 2 1/2 hr communte with 12-14 hour shifts. Anything in my salary range wants a Masters with 10+ years experience in whatever field I apply for. So here I am, literally 2-3 months away from losing both of our cars, our house ( we rent ) , getting locked up for failure to pay child support, and a marriage that has disintegrated because we have lost fucking everything over this god damn fake flu.

I have a loaded rifle and look at it every day. This shit has cost me everything I have ever worked hard for in life. Just yesterday I got contacted about another food service job ( wish to hell someone would call me about a diff job ), only for them to call me back and say because the state increased the Covid phase level again and they anticipate another round of a mass reduction of revenue, well...there is no spot for me to go.

I sit here with a pit in my stomach everyday and pray there is a light at the end of the tunnel, while I watch my neighbors that fortunately have jobs where they arent reliant on a mass amount of people for revenue sit back and collect paychecks while sitting at home with their families.

This bullshit has been a blessing for some people, some people it hasnt effected, and for some people....it has completely destroyed our lives and the only light at the end of the tunnel thats visible is a gunshot to the head. I love my daughter so much and she doesnt deserve to have a daddy that cant provide for her. If I cant, I have a pretty wife...maybe she find someone that will love my daughter as much as I do.

Literally at the complete end of my rope. I am one of those people you may see on the news someday because he finally snapped and took out multiple people on his way out.

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