Oh, I have an EQ Confession that spills into the real world. Again, it involves a girl and me being a jackass.
So when I was 19, I met this girl in EQ who was 17. Yeah, don't arrest me officer, etc. She was a very good player, and an awesome person, nice to everyone, talented, and interesting. I was almost surprised when I talked to her on the phone and she was a real girl with a really cute voice.
We started playing together like all the time, exchanging pictures, etc. She was stunningly cute IRL and she thought I was handsome. Over a few months I think I really fell for this chick, I'd run home from work and get on EQ to hang out with her and talk about stuff until like midnight every night. One time she sent me a picture of herself reclining in lingerie and said "have fun with this" after which I rubbed one out 3x in a row to her and her perfect, heaving 17 year old breasts. Yes without stopping. Even at 19 that was a testament to how into her I was. We had about an 800 mile distance between us but it was nothing insurmountable once she turned 18. I would have probably driven to the moon to be with her.
You might expect that this is where it somehow turns out to be a catfish, or maybe that I went there and got shot by her parents. No, it's dumber than all of that.
She had a high school ex-boyfriend who she'd broken things off with months prior and he was devastated, basically begging her to take him back. She was confused and didn't know what to do, but he was stopping by her house every day, her parents felt bad for him, and so on. So she took him back. Which messed with my head a lot because I was making plans to go out there and everything. She wanted to keep being friends and said there was a pretty good chance they weren't going to work out (again) and that she wasn't ruling me out.
Instead of having some chill about it, I went full no-chill, wasn't going to wait around and be her backup plan. Which is probably the right course of action a lot of the time, but not here. She was young and feeling confused, and I was so "leave me alone" to her about the whole thing that she ended up just getting depressed.
So I basically stopped taking her phone calls, and when I'd see her in EQ on raids and stuff (we were guilded) I'd say mean shit to her like telling her she wasn't any good at the game and asking if she'd dumped her boyfriend yet. At one point I actually trained her in a zone and laughed about it when she gradually got overwhelmed and couldn't keep up on all the mobs coming in, as good of a player as she was. I seriously flipped a switch and treated her like some kind of enemy guild or something. Like in retrospect I almost can't believe I acted like that to a girl who liked me and was a decent person.
After a few weeks of me being a total jackass, she slowly stopped showing up in the game altogether. I want to re-iterate that I was 19 and not the least bit mature about anything. She was probably a lot more mature than me as a matter of fact. She stopped playing EQ and shortly after that so did I (for a few years). She broke up with the other guy again a few months later, but didn't want to get together with me anymore because of how I'd acted, so that was that.
I really lost out on a prize with that one, all because I had to be a jackass to her in the game all the time until she quit. The kicker in all of this is, she was friends with another guy in EQ (who she met after me) and he was there for her during her breakup. She ended up moving after she turned 18 to live with that guy from EQ, and they basically had sex all the time as I understand it because he was helping her "explore her sexuality". She thought she might be bi for a while, so for a time they got this other cute girl into their relationship for 3-ways and the lesbianism, and it was "pretty hot" according to her. Which is like my dream relationship, lawl. Ever since then I've been wanting something like that and never got it.
She told me all of this like five years later when we caught up, but by then we were even further apart (geographically and emotionally) and nothing was happening. Plus I was with someone else.
TLDR, I should have been out meeting real girls at 19 instead of playing EQ, but I was an addict like everyone else was in that era. Lucked into meeting a really hot girl in game, then fucked it up by being a drama queen, and missed an opportunity to have copious amounts of raunchy group sex with a girl I had seriously strong feelings about as well. I got together with a different chick during that time (a very athletic martial artist) and we had a nice relationship for a while, but I definitely missed out by not getting together with the perfect-breasted, sexuality-exploring chick.
