Yeah, stay positive is shitty advice. It's bad advice because it's too short. Two words can't encompass what "stay positive" means.Been having a lot of stomach problems. Went to the doctor, did some tests. I came back anemic. Doctor suggested maybe I'm allergic to gluten. So I don't eat bread for awhile. I don't feel worse but I also don't feel better. I don't have as many stomach problems but it's mainly because I just stop eating. I've lost 95lbs in 6 months. Doctor is not happy with this. I get a endoscopy and colonoscopy yesterday.
Endoscopy looks fine, nothing wrong. Colonoscopy not so good, apparently I have a mass so large in my guts that the camera can't get past. I'm scared out of my fucking mind and I get all weekend to dwell on it. Doctor is doing a biopsy on it and is scheduling a CT scan. Like holy fuck I'm 33, no one in my family has had cancer that I know of. Granted most of my family checks out around the age of 60 due to heart problems or they get shot. So i'm here on RR trying not to flip the fuck out because when I try to talk to my girlfriend about it all I get is "stay positive." Seriously what kind of bullshit advice is that? Stay positive, what the fuck is that going to accomplish? I should smile while they core me out like a fucking apple?
Sorry I'm rambling but I'm freaking out. There is literally no one in my life that has had to deal with this so I come to Rerolled to cry like a bitch. Wow, that sounds even more depressing when its typed out.
I cancelled a job during my cancer diagnosis and explained it to them and they made it work and hired me (probably out of pity).Doctor called me and told me that from the sample he took from the mass that its showing signs of having dysplasia. Using the magic of google-fu and asking him questions it seems I know exactly as much as I did when I first heard about this. I might have cancer, I might not. What the fuck over.
CT scan is tomorrow, fun times. Also had a job interview come up for the same time as my appointment so I had to reschedule that. That always looks good, rescheduling an interview for a job I really want. Oh well. Fun times.
Cancer comes in shades of grey. I won't say that's good news but it's not the worst news you could have gotten either.Doctor called me and told me that from the sample he took from the mass that its showing signs of having dysplasia. Using the magic of google-fu and asking him questions it seems I know exactly as much as I did when I first heard about this. I might have cancer, I might not. What the fuck over.
CT scan is tomorrow, fun times. Also had a job interview come up for the same time as my appointment so I had to reschedule that. That always looks good, rescheduling an interview for a job I really want. Oh well. Fun times.
Maybe because I don't live in the south, but I guess if I knew I would be having a colonoscopy I would probably avoid corn anyways. It always comes out exactly as it went in, don't need to see no corn on the video.Already screwed up my colonoscopy instructions. It's scheduled for Thursday. Figured I would look at the instructions since I know I have to start the stuff a day or two before. Apparently no corn for 7 days before. Well tough shit I guess. Today was the 4th, eat 3 big ears of corn on the cob as usual lol.
The fact that your story ended without you going on a date with the nurse is the real depressing part.Had my colonoscopy and endoscpy or whatever it's called yesterday. That was depressing.
Nurse came in and said he my name is soandso. I asked if she had any relation to someone else I know with the same last name. "Yeah that's my mom". Was a girl I dated 25ish years ago. Depressing.