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Galiem,GaliemVaelant said:This is the obvious solution. I guess the only reason that I"m not saying yet that this is what I must do (though it"s obvious) is that I"m waiting to see if, when she sees this thread, she has an epiphany of sanity. Maybe, by some miracle she will realize the bumbling idiocy of her attitudes. Maybe she will experience a moment of honest humility and admit to herself that she needs some counseling not to discuss me or her family but to discuss herself.
But I doubt it. Tomorrow likely, at some point, she will appear here. If not tomorrow, then when she gets out of the hospital. She will rampage about what a piece of shit I am, and will threaten us all with lawsuits and charges she thinks she can press. Her primary mode of attack will be a long list of accusations slung at me that will be as transparent as all those I"ve already provided for you, and she will explain to us all about how we are breaking the law by discussing this.
It"s my last grain of sympathy, the final straw of compassion, greater even than my own common sense or self preservation. I shudder to think of the toothless, corn husking, banjo playing bums, psychos, and meth addicts who will parade through her life in an endless and increasingly abusive series of next victims.
I take this stance for the record, fully aware of the dumb-fuckery it implies yet possessed of a clarity of reason that knows that this story can not see its greatest closure without this event. For posterity. For great justice. For the lulz.
But I"m not worried. Because she will add onto this thread with a veritable shit storm of verbal vomit the likes of which even the lowest cesspool factions of /b/ can not fathom. With poor grammar, horrendous spelling, and incomplete thoughts she will unleash upon this thread the full power of her wrath with the intent of proving herself once and for all the superior person.
And I will remain silent when it comes, be it tomorrow or a week from now. But when it happens, and I cross my arms and bite my tongue to watch the show, know that the decision was made by her and that at the moment of her first such post here, she has heard the last syllable that I will ever utter to her. This is my pledge and promise to first myself, and then FoH and humanity at large and this is my resolution.
Now, we just wait to see if miracles do happen because if allowing the possibility is an affront to my own self-preservation, then what will blowing the opportunity be for her? The funniest thing of all will be that I told you exactly what will happen before it does, and that will not stop even one word of this prophecy from being fulfilled. The only question is when.
You really seem like an intelligent compassionate young person with incredibly low self esteem. I really can"t fathom how you entered into any relationship with this person regardless of "how they are on the inside". As shallow as that statement appears on the surface. A person with a higher opinion of themselves would have been able to draw the line between befriending someone as troubled as this woman and having sex with her.
You need to take care of your child as best you can of course, but this person cannot be in your life past mother of your child. I don"t know you or this woman, I can"t make a call on who would be a better full time parent. Obviously he/she will need a father, and if he/she is in fact yours, you already seem like you"re willing to do the right thing there.
You want to take care of someone take care of yourself. You need to take a long break from relationships until you"re able to like yourself a whole hell of a lot better than you do right now though. You have goals, and it appears a plan to make more of yourself. That"s where you need to concentrate your time and energy.
If this child is not yours however, you need to let this go and continue working on being someone you can feel good about.
I really don"t know jack shit about your disorders but you can"t keep beating the shit out of yourself because of them. Focus on yourself and the rest will come. 29 is still really young, you have time to do the things you want if you don"t distract yourself with other peoples misery.