You can also look at this forum. Several people did not want to come on over because they were very worried that we would just shut down. You don't want to get invested into an Emu and then the admin just wanders off or actively shuts it down.
To be fair, this site did shut down on fohguild, rerolled, and rererolled. You only took up the reigns because you cared about this community. I created servers because I cared to give folks that were disillusioned with a company, whom, judging by this thread has done their fair share of undesirable behavior.
Story time: I applied to SOE once in 2013... it didn't work out. I was too happy to want to work there. They just wanted quick help they could abuse for whatever purpose, and it showed. They ended up laying the guy off that got hired instead of me a year later. I dodged a big bullet. They wanted an employee, but I sought a family of game developers that I could relate to, similar to the relations in the hobbyist emulator scene. Getting rejected by the people that I once admired only fueled my passion to create games. I think I am a bit lucky that I missed that bullet, though I don't think anyone wants to play Russian roulette with Columbus Nova.
Making MMO and FPS worlds is therapeutic for me. Creating EQEmu servers helped me through my angsty teenage years, and taught me skills that I quite frankly wouldn't have without the EQEmu community. I only hope that the lasting impact I had is enjoyed through servers like P99 and fragments of memories of content I have created.
I had no concept of anything like retention, KPIs, etc, when I first started out in emu, as do every other amateur server owner does when they first start. I made things because I cared about giving a lasting experience. I didn't realize that shutting down things I made would have a long-term impact. Hell, when I started doing this I was 16, and didn't have life experiences that explained a lot of my feelings... let alone providing something creative for others to play.
But now I do. It's life-changing and freeing in a way when you ship your first title with a team. I wouldn't have done my life any other way, because I would be a miserable wreck.
Who the hell is Ponytail?
Dave Georgeson. He was the Director of EQ1/EQ2.