So I mentioned like Tuesday that I told DG that I intended to stick to my plan of going back to the states in 16 months. She ignored my texts for 2 days but I decided to go about business as usual and continue to message her every now and then, no more no less. I figured she"d either be in a couple day funk and get over it (I never indicated to her I planned to stay in the first place) or she"d never get over it and we"d break up. Either way, she was doubtlessly feeling rejected from it so I made sure to not withdraw the normal attention.
On the 3rd day, Friday, I spoke to her at work on my way to meet a friend. I asked her about food/beer after work Saturday to which she flat out denied me. Ouch. I asked if she was still upset about the convo, she said sorta, so I said I understand and went on my way. The next day she was more responsive, and I asked her again to meet me that night. She agreed. We went out but she was really really quiet. When it was time to leave she wanted to go home. She ALWAYS comes back to my place where I give her a paralyzing orgasm every time, but she denied me again. I said "is it because of last week still?" and she said yea. So I said, irritated, "do you ever plan to talk about it and tell me what you"re thinking? Or are you gonna just act weird forever?" She didn"t say anything, and instead walked ahead of me to the cab I was gonna get in, came to my place, and we fucked. After that all appears to be well.
So fuckin weird.
I realize a lot of that, as I type, appears to be sorta needy behavior. Asking her multiple times, etc. I guess this is another case where all I can say is that"s not how it is, and you either believe me or don"t. Most likely she was feeling rejected after the convo last week, so I wanted to make sure nothing changed on my end so that she knew I didn"t want anything to be different.
One thing I noticed is when I show I"m patient or understanding with her she takes advantage of it. But when I express my desires and challenge her, she kinda falls back into a submissive role. I don"t want either, I want someone on equal grounds, but with her its one or the other.
The pain in the ass the last few weeks is making my mind drift elsewhere. We already face language issues, and she just refuses to make any attempt to explain what she"s thinking to me. I"d be somewhat happy if she just rambled on in Korean for 20 minutes, at least then I"d know that SHE at least knows what she"s thinking. Keep in mind I"m really only talking about the me-going-home conversation here.
Then today some really cute korean girl with gorgeous eyes (obviously post-surgery) came to my school and I chatted with her a bit. And all I thought today was "man if I was single I coulda asked her out."
At this point I kinda just wanna push DG and see what she"s made of. Push the apartment immediately, and make her either explain to me what she"s thinking or flat out stop acting weird about our me-going-home conversation. The sex is really good, there is no question she"s into me and I like her company. But historically it hasn"t taken much for me to wanna move on and go sleep with other girls while I"m still young.
On the 3rd day, Friday, I spoke to her at work on my way to meet a friend. I asked her about food/beer after work Saturday to which she flat out denied me. Ouch. I asked if she was still upset about the convo, she said sorta, so I said I understand and went on my way. The next day she was more responsive, and I asked her again to meet me that night. She agreed. We went out but she was really really quiet. When it was time to leave she wanted to go home. She ALWAYS comes back to my place where I give her a paralyzing orgasm every time, but she denied me again. I said "is it because of last week still?" and she said yea. So I said, irritated, "do you ever plan to talk about it and tell me what you"re thinking? Or are you gonna just act weird forever?" She didn"t say anything, and instead walked ahead of me to the cab I was gonna get in, came to my place, and we fucked. After that all appears to be well.
So fuckin weird.
I realize a lot of that, as I type, appears to be sorta needy behavior. Asking her multiple times, etc. I guess this is another case where all I can say is that"s not how it is, and you either believe me or don"t. Most likely she was feeling rejected after the convo last week, so I wanted to make sure nothing changed on my end so that she knew I didn"t want anything to be different.
One thing I noticed is when I show I"m patient or understanding with her she takes advantage of it. But when I express my desires and challenge her, she kinda falls back into a submissive role. I don"t want either, I want someone on equal grounds, but with her its one or the other.
The pain in the ass the last few weeks is making my mind drift elsewhere. We already face language issues, and she just refuses to make any attempt to explain what she"s thinking to me. I"d be somewhat happy if she just rambled on in Korean for 20 minutes, at least then I"d know that SHE at least knows what she"s thinking. Keep in mind I"m really only talking about the me-going-home conversation here.
Then today some really cute korean girl with gorgeous eyes (obviously post-surgery) came to my school and I chatted with her a bit. And all I thought today was "man if I was single I coulda asked her out."
At this point I kinda just wanna push DG and see what she"s made of. Push the apartment immediately, and make her either explain to me what she"s thinking or flat out stop acting weird about our me-going-home conversation. The sex is really good, there is no question she"s into me and I like her company. But historically it hasn"t taken much for me to wanna move on and go sleep with other girls while I"m still young.