Hmm, can't really think of a better thread for this. Just got a call from my dad a minute ago, one of my cousins who was just a year or two older than me just died tonight. Fucking sucks. I always figured I would be the first of our generation to go, seeing as my body has been dying by inches to diabetes related junk, but damn. Guess we are going to be going to Phoenix in a few days.
367th day - I am doing better than I ever thought could be possible. So here are his words from 10/19/2015:As an aside, I found a poem G wrote...he dated it Oct 19. I don't know if he would want it shared as it appears as if it were a first draft but it made me cry and miss him and love him all the more. The fucker.
I was coming down from cocaine when I read this entire thread and I lost it when Mrs. G posted the poem.
I lost it a little last night on my way home from another long day. All the years of having him waiting for me to arrive home, a kiss and embrace upon entering the house, us ready to share our evening meal together and visit with one another until bedtime. I miss that. I miss him.I was coming down from cocaine when I read this entire thread and I lost it when Mrs. G posted the poem.
I lost it a little last night on my way home from another long day. All the years of having him waiting for me to arrive home, a kiss and embrace upon entering the house, us ready to share our evening meal together and visit with one another until bedtime. I miss that. I miss him.
I want it. I know it will never again be the same, but I like being in a relationship and I desire having someone to hold and with whom I can just be.
Of course ypu are right. Most of the time I am completely comfortable in my own skin...and with myself. Sometimes, like last night, I feel loneliness...I don't expect someone else to make me happy...I want to be able to share my happy and to be able to share in someone's.....eventually.Well, just like Gravy was different from your first husband, whoever you end up wanting to be with long term will be different from him. Life has more to explore than any of us could enjoy with a thousand lifetimes. Happiness is a place you have to build for yourself and maintain it against the chaos we all run into every day. Hopefully you find someone who helps with that.
Going to say it again...I love this community. ♡
Shhhh dont let that get out. We are rather proud of our shitlordness