Or some combination of you just got tired of being the UN of fucking and are reassessing some things and you made a big change moving back to the deep south and are reorienting and rethinking. Or the whitebread bitch bothered you more than you thought at first -- and after some emotional and physical distance now you"re starting to process exactly how much you fucking hated her. I had a girlfriend like that. I didn"t realize how much I despised that woman until about a year after we broke up. Shit"s weird sometimes. You can get invested in a person and lose objectivity. Which would also look like being depressed. Depressed is a small word that covers a lot of ground. Prolly just depressed.