that other bitch was a pale blonde, white in the most classic of white girl ways.
a few later, even though i hated her i knew i needed to distance i decided to date the darkest of the dark, i banged for a good while a haitian girl that wouldn"t show up with the lights off. after that was over, i had a thing with indians for a while, which was fun for a time. one last with a chick from ecuador, and then i was done.
since then i moved back to deep, deep south, my old hometown and surrounding areas now composed seemingly entirely of 50% (welfare-level ghetto boos)/(45% mostly superconserv-wives in waiting) and 5% illegal alien married ladies.
For some odd reason, I"ve completely lost my sex drive. And no, I"m not just being sarcastic or commenting on the above paragraph. The 45% isn"t totally composed of church-addicted baby makers, but I couldn"t be bothered were there to be two dozen diamonds among them.
I can remember a time, just scant months ago, where I still flirted with women, even ladies I had no intention of pursuing, if only for the fun of it.
Now the thought of trying sickens me, and all I want to do is sleep early so I"m not tired when I wake for work. But at night, every night for some time now I have these fucked up dreams about a chick who treated me awful, who I gladly nixed from my life and cut from every form of media and contact, and I don"t know how to account...
But I feel I"ve been blinded by something, which is why I ask. I"m so tired now these days, and my family is too sympathetic for me to stomach, so I ask you guys;.
