Haven't posted in a while about my situation, and just haven't much felt like talking about it. But I am at a point now where I am seriously considering moving out. Things went from bad, to pretty good, to really shitty in a hurry though. I am at a point now where I am pretty bummed out and totally torn on what to do. The thought of not being in the same house as my kids tears me up though, and I don't know that I can actually do it.
It turns out there was another guy involved. Even though there was nothing physical (and yes I know this for a fact since the guy doesn't even live anywhere near us) it has me pretty broken up. Instead of coming to me with how she was feeling when things were getting tough, she reached out to someone else and some feelings started there between them. At first it was something I thought I could get past, but everytime I think about it I end up getting pretty pissed off.
So now I just need to weigh between trying to get over it and being in the same home as my kids. Or tell her to fuck off, and deal with not being around nearly as much as I would like.
There is a whole lot more detail to it, and if you guys really feel like reading through it I can attempt to try and lay it all out. Reality is I am not even really looking for an answer, cause I don't know that anyone can tell me how to feel about it. Just needed to vent and talk a bit I guess. I haven't talked to my family about it at all, because to them she is perfect and they have her sitting up on this pedestal. Couple that with the fact the there is all kinds of drama going on with my family, and I just didn't want to add to everyone's stress. So I have discussed it with one of my cousin's, but nobody in either of our direct family knows what is going on. So it helps to vent where I can I suppose.